-K9- - 2006-10-17 10:24 PM

WHY THE FUCK IS IT THAT EVERY GOD DAMN TIME I FIND A GIRL I LIKE, AND I THINK MAY LIKE ME TURNS OUT TO BE TAKEN? WHY DOESN'T GOD ANSWER MY PRAYERS YET? WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE SO MUCH TROUBLE FINDING SOMEONE? AND WHERE THE HELL IS EVERYBODY WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO? I SWEAR TO GOD THE ONLY PEOPLE I TRUST ARE NEVER AROUND ON DAYS LIKE THIS. WHY CAN'T I REPAIR MY BRUISED SELF-CONFIDENCE? WHY THE FUCK IS THIS STILL A PROBLEM SO MANY YEARS LATER? AND AS FAR AS SCHOOL GOES CAN'T TEACHER BACK OFF A BIT? I MEAN 'A TALE OF TWO CITIES' IS FUCKING BORING TO ME, ICOULDN'T PAY ATTENTION TO IT IF MY LIFE DEPENDED ON IT. WHY CAN'T MY NERDY ASS SCIENCE TEACHER JUST LET ME TO MY DAMN REPORT MY OWN WAY? IT WOULD MAKE IT EASIER ON ME, BUT NO LETS PUT DUE DATES ON EVERY LITTLE DETAIL OF THE DAMN THING JUST BECAUSE MOST IDIOTS ARE STUPID ENOUGH TO SHOW THE TEACHER THEY ARE JUST BLOWING IT OFF. WHY SHOULD I EVEN GO TOMORROW? THE GIRLS I LIKE ARE EITHER TAKEN OR DON'T LIKE ME, AND I DON'T HAVE THE BALLS TO TALK TO THEM ANY MORE THAN I HAVE ALREADY TRIED TO DO. FUCKING DICKHEADS THAT KILLED MY SELF-ESTEEM SO LONG AGO MAY HAVE FUCKED UP MY CHANCE WITH EVERY GIRL I EVER LIKED. I CAN'T AND WON'T FORGIVE THAM FOR THAT. THEY GOT ME TO THE POINT WHERE I QUESTION MY IMPORTANCE ON EARTH? AM I GOOD ENOUGH TO DATE THESE GIRLS? I FEEL LIKE I'M NOT, BUT I KNOW I AM. GOD DAMNIT I'M PISSED OFF.

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